Katsou

Yes it is lonely that is the bad thing relationships hurt when they are gone but when you dont have them its even worse because then your alone with nobody to share anything with or interact with to a point of pure love

I have been through it myself it makes it hard for me to let my arms out to a person that i can ensure they like me i have through to many liars and cheaters to do that my trust is hard to obtain

I understand you on that on the bright side your great because you have a great future planned out for yourself reading your info page anyway says so

Well its better then zero dating whatso ever at least its somebody i hope you do find a person out there though and eventually move to japan like you want

It happens thats all I can say this is the bad thing about getting into a relationship especially if your the good guy who usually is always kind but less noticible its hard for that kind of guy all I can say is surround yourself with entertainment and friends and try to let it out and forget about it