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cyansan

Cyan-San

28 year old Male
Single
Last online 7年弱 ago
Holland, OH
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 11:33pm
Lol will do :3
ella_eve
ella_eve @ella_eve left a comment for Cyan-San
Mar 13, 14 at 11:28pm
Well you make sure you get that done first lol
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 11:21pm
Well thanks for being a friend :3 And I really hope I do find who I'm looking for. There are certain things I miss having the chance to partake in. Maybe some day by some chance we'd be able to hang out. I think it'd be a blast even if it was a one time thing. Maybe after I take over the world lol.
ella_eve
ella_eve @ella_eve left a comment for Cyan-San
Mar 13, 14 at 11:09pm
Okay, well i think that you really deserve friend outside the of the net, and that you should also really really get out more (easier said than done). I have also been burned with pretty bad experiences online. It scares me sometimes. But that aside, i hardly doubt your a burden in any way. It may be that you can be somewhat overwhelming, but that's just, for me, because you seem really intelligent. I feel the same way too. Seriously. And might be that way, but i'm getting better
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 10:39pm
I feel like I overwhelm people a lot. I feel like I'm too much or a burden.
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 10:38pm
Yeah. I see your point there. I've felt firsthand how unhealthy online friendships and/or relationships are. It really toys with the emotions. I've been left in a bad emotional state because of it. I personally have to be consoled because of past mistakes with relationships. Which is one of my purposes of coming to Otaku social networking sites. I came primarily for friendship, but I also look forward to something more as well. But I also don't believe in any sort of online only relationship. I've had too many bad experiences with that. I've let my feelings take over me quite a few times. I'm sure you can see that just based on how open I am. This all contributes to me wanting to physically be around and talk to people. That and I only leave my house probably once or twice a month. I've spent most of the last two years at home. It gets boring and lonely >_>.
ella_eve
ella_eve @ella_eve left a comment for Cyan-San
Mar 13, 14 at 10:29pm
Sometimes i feel insecure, on this site even. Like i'm not interesting enough for people to talk to me, or even pretty enough. What do you know, just like school! So i also get excited when i find someone interesting to speak to.
ella_eve
ella_eve @ella_eve left a comment for Cyan-San
Mar 13, 14 at 10:26pm
Well, we seem to have a lot in common. I have also moved around very often. I switched high schools in the middle of freshman year (still a freshman) Never been the type to get along very well in social situations, so making friends was a pretty big deal, and i had to leave them. Also, being able to watch anime makes me really happy, and sometimes it is the only thing that is able to spark any type of happiness. While i feel it can be unhealthy to rely on friendships made online, its something that has also helped me. You really should try to get out if you feel that's what is better for you, though.
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 10:04pm
Do tell me if I get carried away. I don't talk to people often and I get excited easily.
cyansan
Mar 13, 14 at 10:01pm
I understand that. I've seen how public schools are. I used to be in public school up until freshman year of high school. People are cruel. I honestly started moving around a lot because I belong to a poor family. I've had to leave a lot of people behind. Honestly, if it wasn't for internet and anime, I would suffer depression. I actually like how I've gotten the chance to meet people on the internet. I just kinda want to actually meet people physically and talk. Although, I'm not gonna lie, I'm happy I found a person like you so quick after joining this site. Not that I meant anything improper by that though. However, staying at home so long has made me a bit crazy lol. I like to have fun and have good aspirations for this world.
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