Moondust @moondust
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I don't rate any of the anime I watched.
aml50 @aml50 Fair enough. I haven't seen Seraph of the End, what's it like?
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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Lol I think that's everyone and is that pic from the Sims?
aml50 @aml50 Nah, it's a painting. idk, i think most people who aren't socially awkward go out and put in the work to find their special someone.
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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I work in a kitchen so we had a lot of parties and unexpected rushes
aml50 @aml50 Gotcha, sounds rough. Where I work, busy days are just annoying, but for you it was probably exhausting. Hope you get to work somewhere that more laid back sooner rather than later.
aml50 @aml50 Oh, I was wondering, what made you decide on your username?
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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Nothing in particular just super busy had a lot of double and had to stay over a couple hours
aml50 @aml50 Oof, sorry to hear that. Why were you busy?
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Yea I get it you want reassurance, a lot of people want that it helps build confidence but truth be told not everyone is going to do that. It kinda helps to having some amount of confidence on your own
aml50 @aml50 Fair enough. So what were you talking about when you said you had a crazy week?
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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Yea and also you shouldn't have others looking for value in you, you should know your worth. If you know you are a good person who tries, caring and patient than don't try to prove that to someone who doesn't see it. This is why it's important to get to know yourself yes you have flaws we all do but it doesn't change how you act. And if someone passes you up for someone else it's their loss not yours. It's tough to find that genuine person but everything in life worth having is never easy, and don't feel bad if your friends are at a place you want to be it's ok nice guys may finish last but at least they finish ^^
aml50 @aml50 I know where you're coming from, but it's not that I want someone to find value in me that I don't see, but more like I want someone to reaffirm what I already know. There's a difference between know and feeling, I know that I'm nice, intelligent, and handsome; but I don't feel it. Does that make since?
aml50 @aml50 *knowing
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Well we all have anxiety so you shouldn't feel alone a lot of people just know how to hide it and handle it when panic attacks happen, we tend to judge ourselves harder than others do. The thing with anxiety mixed with depression is the doubt gets mixed with self hate making it harder to actually pull out of it. And most of it comes from fear, fear of looks, being judged, or not being good enough in general. It's a nasty tug of war game with your mind where you need to find balance, we can't hide from the dark but you can embrace it in a good way and work with it turn the negative into a positive and prove yourself wrong when ever you start to fear the unknown. And I know it's easier said than done trust me I know, but just remember your anxiety doesn't define you
aml50 @aml50 I really believe what you're saying. I think the tipping point for me in the right direction will be finding someone I believe is sincerely interested in me with no ulterior motives. That would have a domino effect of proving that I do have value and that I matter. Like I always say, I just have to be patient.
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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I get that it can be crazy overwhelming and tiring at the sametime to the point you want to give up, from what others keep telling me take the time you have being single to get to know yourself make peace with your doubts and fears and work to improve yourself as a person, and don't force/rush something things happen for a reason and in their own time and don't compare your life with others
aml50 @aml50 Thanks, I appreciate it! I'm trying to just be patient and do some introspection to understand where my anxieties come from. Some times I'm afraid though that I might be looping back in on myself with negativity, reinforcing my anxieties. I'm hoping that something will change or someone will come along to help me "break out" so to speak.
kitsune90 @kitsune90
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lol yea it's been a crazy week hopefully it'll calm down now, i am looking but not rushing with it, since i have low tolerance for the games and dishonesty. it's safe to assume that you are actively look?
aml50 @aml50 i'm more or less active, i mean i'm hoping to find someone sooner rather than later, but my depression, social anxiety, and disheartening after little to no contact online have made actually looking for and approaching women difficult to say the least
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as far as free go i wouldn't recommend any of the ones I've tired, just because what people seem to want isn't something serious, nor did it look like a lot of people go on there
aml50 @aml50 that's also what I've noticed, also long time no see X) I guess I'll look at my options for pay site and make a decision at some point. so are you looking for anyone to date and if so, are more so actively or passively looking?
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