Voided: Lowest point in your life~

Getting older I understand that life isn't like fairy tails there's no prince to sweep you off your feet no nothing.. As what you think is a prince in shining armor is a loser in tinfoil having intercourse with everyone but you.

I’m sorry that I haven’t been doing the best lately. My days consist of constant anxiety and my nights are filled with tossing and turning, trying to fall asleep so I can escape for just a little while. No matter what I try, this feeling just won’t go away. It consumes every second of everyday. I can’t live like this. I am falling apart and the people around me aren’t even realizing it. I used to never cry. I would stare at the wall filled with sadness, but no tears would come out. Now, I cry too much. Most of the time, it’s out of frustration. I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me and it’s making my life a living hell. This one life I have is being poisoned by my own mind. How do you escape something that is a part of you? https://64.media.tumblr.com/5eae1121ec49229b65f5ae7b3c9f994b/tumblr_oy5n1ro0LI1wf5mhio1_500.jpg

They say "time heals", but even now ... I know that's a lie. What people really mean is that eventually you'll get used to the pain. You'll forget who you were without it; you'll forget what you looked like without your scars.

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Sleep doesn't help if it's your soul that is tired.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ https://64.media.tumblr.com/d5b04f2e8a4d0483c0d235c59a837042/tumblr_pc9yx2ZmrD1x02ik2o1_1280.jpg

. . . Getting <3attached<3 to someone is realy scary. They can leave anytime, and the pain you feel is almost unbearable. . . . https://64.media.tumblr.com/38f3ce48ac499d5cc9fad108dd5a46ef/32dba8067d45293c-82/s1280x1920/637a0703b9cb3ae5b4e8b4c5fbc149f760866b2e.jpg

Exactly.... Recently one of my friends stop talking to me it just adds a few more minutes to my daily crying session where when I get home I slouch over my bed and ball my eyes out it feels so nice but my heart hurts It gives me the stamina to go back as the happy optimistic person I usually am I have perfected "the smile" where I smile on the outside and say I'm fine when inside I'm debating if I should kill myself today or tomorrow