How to convince myself to end it all

I think at the of the day, if you want friends you also need to be a friend. People can look past flaws, but personal attacks can strain relationships. Maybe reanalyze what you actually want?

What are your flaws they don't look past? Do you expect them to babysit/coddle you? Expect them to take your personal attacks? That's not a friendship.

It's true, I would rather you rage on me than in the forums. It's not the only reason I talk to you though, you're nice underneath the rage. Yasshat is right though, I think he'd be a good person to talk to, site veteran. @Yasshat I actually thought you'd gone when I came back, I didn't see you in the forums much. Must have been missing each other.