Goodbye Mai Otaku

Why do I even try dating anymore, I'm always gonna be some girl's tool for greed, reputation, or eventually friend zoned then ghosted to being an acquaintance, because I'm there to pick up the broken pieces of a destroyed relationship or used to make some one feel good about themselves, fuck I feel like complete shit 68 girls... i know it sounds like it may be my problem, and maybe it is. Maybe im too nice and i let people walk over me or people feel too sorry for my ass. Girl 1) (Jenn) Best relationship ive had, a good friend and a loyal kind and empathetic supportive companion Girl 2) (Luara) A relationship i fucked up because i was too desperate for another relationship Girl 3) (Savanah) I knew what i wanted in a relationship but she used me to make her boyfriend jealous Girl 4) (Ali) Some who used me to make herself feel better about herself and turned narcissistic, then came back to me when i left her Girl 5) (Sherry) Some one who texted her other boyfriend on our 2nd date Girl 6) (Carol) Some one who just wanted me to buy her things all the time Girl 7) (Sarah) Someone who felt bad for me, went out with me but i broke up when i found out about this, but couldnt even be mature enough in the end The list goes on even on this website. idk... i give up I wish you all find the "one" you want that best friend and lover... im just ganna get an aranged marraige and hope that i dont kill myself that it may be toxic