What keeps you guys going in life?

Video game music, moderate amount of Quest protein cookies, plenty of lukewarm bottled water, trust in natural healing and distrust in medications, obsession of struggling with Shuzo Matsuoka's motivational words playing in my visual/audial thinking, self-controlling my mood and behavior, remembering as many important things as possible, praying and working in two jobs loading dishwashers for around 28 hours a week while earning and saving harder.

Literally nothing, my only drive is the determination to either watch humanity one day get better, or see humanity burn itself to the ground, besides that, not sure how I haven't attempted suicide yet.