Stens Thoughts

Hello, I am Arvid also called sten. I am almost constantly depressed and this is where I shall vent, I was inspired to create this by ToriTori. I am going to use this to vent because I do not want others to feel bad in Friendly's discord because that is where I usually talk when I am down. :)

be aware that I (so far) have never had a thought about suicide and hopefully never will, I am just saying that because this thread will probably be full of me feeling bad about myself :D

I dont know whats going on in your life but try to look on the better side, glass half full you know. Depression sucks, but fighting it day by day is rewarding

thats what everyone says, positive thoughts rarely work so i just wait it out :D or start watching anime til i dont feel sad/empty anymore :D

did toritori delete his account? i cannot click it :c i wanted to see what he was doing since i had not talked to him in a while :3 hope nothing bad or sad happened :c

Being young isn't a reason you wouldn't suffer. Just try to focus on bettering yourself, eating healthily and get a bit of exercise in. Finding something you enjoy doing as well to do in your spare time can help too

i mean i have something i enjoy and that is talking to friends and making games, my eating habit has kinda turned to crap as of late and exercise i try to do often but lately i have kinda stopped doing that because of shitty weather, rain or windy and cold

see! i am talking alot even here >:( i hate that about myself! it feels like no one gets to talk then! it feels like i am focusing solely on myself! and i dont like my personality either! everyone thinks i am happy, clueless, gullible and generous but in reality i am not clueless. i think about stuff all of the time and everything i do (irl) is planned. i am always aware of my surroundings because i am paranoid af (i always look around me constantly even when i am basically alone whilst out and about, also i look at the ground for potential hazards even though there should be none) but the generous part is true ;D i am generous because i want to feel appreciated :) but everyone now thinks of me as an idiot because i try to make people laugh with what i say... and yes this is "keeping my sanity" but with me instead :D