I need a cigarette

It was one month for me, but then shit happened, stress occurred and here I be. It's a bad crutch, but to those that have overcome, never look back.

Im still working on the wanting to quit part... you guys are deff an inspiration im sure tho for the people who are struggling with trying to. It helps to know someone is or has been going thru the same thing and they came out on top in the end. Very proud of anyone who has the willpower to even try to change themselves or their life for the better, let alone the people who actually succeed.

My habitual demon would be liquor or mixed drinks, never been a beer guy. Some might argue it's worse with me being underage to drink legally (as of posting this anyways), but let's be honest, in the U.S, if you want something, you can get it regardless of the law as long as you have enough connections or money. I'm Scots-Irish, and pretty big for my age (6'2, 210ish lbs) so it takes a lot for me to get a buzz. The last time I drank, I finished off a 5th of whiskey myself, then looked at my laptop for the time and realized; I'd finished the damn bottle in under an hour. I haven't touched alcohol of any kind in over a month, but honestly, if I were offered anything right now, I'd be inclined to accept.

In particular, where I live barely anyone gets carded or asked for any ID/proof of age/etc. I'm able to buy it myself due to my looks and size (not many 19 year-olds have a full beard), which also makes it a constant temptation especially at times where I just feel like crap