Free advice for those who need it

@saverak That's completely fine. It's who you are.

Keep a pic or something of the thing that you hate nearby in a location so that you come across is often. That way, over time you'll get used to it and your feelings of hate shall slowly, but surely, fade away. PS. You don't have to go all out. Just put a couple pics here and there.

Leaving your house scares you..... Hmmmmm..... Get an appointment with your doctor and get it checked. Medicinal help may be needed. . . Get out of your house. Start off by walking in front of your front door outside for a minute or two. Day by day increase the duration for which you are outside your house. If you're invited to any family gathering, party, etc. ,accept the invitation. Get your close friends to help. If you lack motivation message me.

@hiretsuna I mean, don't have any friends irl, I can get out, it just scares me a lot, so when I get out of home is just to buy things for me, but thanks for the advice! >-<

@Sad otaku. How do I kill off my emotions? I don't kill off emotions, I learn to manage them :D.得之我幸，失之我命~Everything is transcient~I did get attached to people/things quickly many years ago, though they didn't know~