What's the hardest part about dating YOU?

from my pov: -i'm very hard to talk to, maybe? i dont respond as much. got nothing to say. talking irl exert less energy than chatting/posting -very aloof when people get to close. i'm easy to talk at first but i dont know how to maintain a conversation after that -poor health overall. trying to be healthy as much as i can -perhaps borderline hopeless romantic that have ideal romance delusions. i usually just use otome to feed those romantic craving as i know my reality although i crave for having someone in my life romantically, i just dont see it happening either i chase it or not i tried with a friend in college but we only lasted 6 months. first and last relationship i had btw

My being liked and known by many ppl despite the fact that I'm extremely detached and unresponsive isn't something that clingy,obsessive,jealous ppl would accept. probably the hardest part of dating me for those ppl. My often being scholarly and serious may be intimidating to people who prefer lighthearted stuff/seemingly goofy ppl.＜hardest part for those ppl＞ I like to go sightseeing and explore relics and museums, experience cultures in person To some shut-ins,worst trait. hardest part. I'm terrible at sweet talks! I prefer actions~ I don't show ppl my real weak sides easily :D...When somebody desperately want me to open up, I will probably escape.

All I can say is that it's a mixed bag with me. I've got a long history of highs and lows. It's taking time to realize who I really am rather than who I've tried to be: Attentive, reserved, private, academic, stoic, cynical, analytical, but with all that said, kind and empathetic. Sobriety is opening up doors I never thought I'd pass through again. I'm not the male archetype. I don't care about charming anyone, being attractive, or appearing benevolent to anyone anymore. I just want to sincerely act upon who I am and have genuine interactions, and that's not an easy thing to do with most people, or if you're acting like a fuckin doofus.

I'm too distant. That pretty much sums it up. https://i.imgur.com/rZ2HgeP.png