What's the hardest part about dating YOU?

To start I have thought about this topic quite a lot in my life and still haven't come to any solid conclusions. This is partly due to the fact that while I have pieces of me that do not change I feel like most of who I am changes every few years as I figure out what I like and who I am. So my answers will apply to me as I am now. The most difficult part of any relationship has been trust. I just have a problem putting my faith in something I can not know for sure. That being said it is not impossible for me to trust someone. It's just that it's hard to gain and easy to lose for me. This does not mean that I haven't myself lost people's trust because of my actions. I just try to be aware of my actions, even to the point of over analyzing my decisions and paralyzing my brain into doing nothing. In sort I am scared of hurting people and being hurt. A second thing I tend to find difficult in a relationship is a conversation topic for every time you are with the person. I tend to have plenty in the beginning and then quickly run out because of over talking. At this point I start to feel like a bore and not worth there time. Then there is the clingy or distant question to which I would say both. I can be clingy at times even overbearing and yet not want to say a word for days. Not sure why that is. In the end I'd say I maybe let my emotions rule my relationships too much and I wish I didn't. As to how i'm trying to fix that? I guess I'll keep thinking on why I do the things I do and learn how to relax more so i can behave naturally. Also maybe therapy if I can ever afford it. :P

I'm really strict with cleanliness and keeping the house clean. I will lose it if the house is dirty or a mess. Of course, I won't get angry, unless my partner actively ignores or disrespects me about this.

For me is trust. I once pull all my faith and trust this one user on DeviantArt. Only found out he draws beastality art and underage porno fat loli girls recently. Then and there I had to dump him. He claim to change for me, but instead crawl back to his underage loli porn. What really got to me when draw an image of a pokemon trainer f-ing a pokemon Slyveon. But yeah I lost my trust on him long ago. That fact he lied and did not tell me his boundaries. Could of said he is into such art. Tell me the truth. So I would not be too upset. But no... I guess I can never find someone who isn't horny and sex driven.