Im a Cheater magnet

Avoid people with serious mental illness, especially personality disorders. While they are not all bad people and can be rewarding to date at the right circumstances. My experience is that I've been cheated on every time I dated someone with such mental state, sometimes personalities just don't match and a person is just looking for someone to be right beside them "for the meantime" and have no intention of going long-term

See the thing is, Its relatable for me because Ive been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but I know how to cope with it, Ive kinda tried too much for that whole, Im sad, so ill make you happy deal, You feel?

I can kinda feel, but I think it's just a matter of personality and ideals chemistry. Some are not bound to be mixed and will always react a certain way, and there is no going around it. Sorry if what I said was insensitive.

Its good to care and help others. But trying to "fill in" that "something" for others in an attempt to try and help or get closer to them isn't good, healthy, or kind. You'll keep being used by others who don't deserve your time, all while undermining your own self-esteem in the process by doing so. You care more about wanting to fill that something and for them to feel like someone is there for them, rather than establishing a healthy relationship. You're disregarding your standards, boundaries, and even your own self-esteem by doing literally EVERYTHING and ANYTHING you can to help a person as passing it off as loyalty. You'll just keep meeting people who don't respect or really care about you if you dedicate that much to people without having them earn your trust, love, or loyalty, going all in from the start. I ain't saying you can't or shouldn't help people, but don't rush and dedicate all of yourself and get together or closer with them in order to show that they're loved and cared about to help them, especially all as a means to get closer to them. Loyalty is earned too. And loyalty isn't dedicating as much as you can to anyone that's got problems, only for you to get mad when they betray you and don't return those actions or aren't grateful. That's just helping others as a means to fill your own lack of self-esteem. Just as how you've been attempting to fill others. So overall.....stop helping people as a means to get closer to them. If you want to help people, help them. Just don't use it as a means to replace your lack of self-esteem and get closer to them.....focus more on yourself dude. Cause you deserve better, you deserve to find someone who likes you for who you are rather than what you do for them, and you deserve to love yourself too. Otherwise, you'll keep trying to fill in that something for people who would toss you away the second you're done being useful or when there's signs of strife, rather than respecting/loving yourself enough to begin with, as to not base finding a relationship off of solely how much YOU'RE able to do, dedicate, and give to the other said person. I believe you want to fill something for others, cause deep down you want them to do same for you. If you aren't being treated right, don't blame others, decide your own worth, and if you don't want to be treated like a doormat, get off the floor. Do you want self-love, close friends, and loved ones, or do you want people who abuse your overdedication? I'll say it again for good measure....focus more on yourself and your self-esteem.