When did ur view of reality change and grow up?

Still talking about religion Humans appeared first than religion. If really exist hell and heavens, it exists before the religion was created. I believe in a possibility, in energies, a being, something, but my judgement in the after life will not be changed based of what religion I followed, but yes what I did. My mom putted me in christianism classes, since 1rs grade until first year of high school, every Saturday I would go to the church for a 1 hour class about the Bible and saints. I never really believed it, but I used that to learn and understand why people believe in a religion. To @loligagger I'm still in a pos small depression stage, so I don't really wanna think about the meaning of life. For now I live to see how the world is, I wanna know if my life can get better, or I'm destined to never have a happy ending. Maybe in 5/10 years I can finally judge life, for now it's just life.