Vent

my brother saved some kittens after the tsunami in shanghai and im very mad cause he gets to raise 5 kittens now and i have 0 kittens

I've always felt like I had eyes on me, fixating their sights on everything I do, waiting for any little mistake I may commit, I was about to embrace the fact it's just in my head, but now it's become real. I'm already enough of an anxious bitch, I do not want any more pressure weighing down my shoulders than I already have. I get that I'm not worthy of anyone's trust but I'd prefer not having anyone meddle with my personal affairs.

Its fine, listen to him, dont take my advice. I really just wanted to help. just ignore me, i'll sacrifice myself, i'll always be the villain, though we were that close already, i cant believe you'll just shove that aside. But thanks for becoming a addition to one of my fucking problems now! can't hate ya for being too nice :)

This is the reason why i shut off my feelings to everyone, why i never trusted anyone due to some issues.. but i guess i should just do it again.