Vent

Don't look into what's being made public? Avert your eyes, kidies!!! Dis be adult binness!!! Edit: Sofuckingdoneman, YOUR'E BACK! Yippee!!!

even on my medication my depression still happens in different ways i wont even KNOW im depressed until a few days pass without a shower, laundry piles up and iv barely eaten depression sucks but atleast when its the sad/painful kind i know its happening feel like these spells are getting more often and that scares me also i keep spilling things on keyboards yesterday, for like the 5th time, i spilled liquid on a keyboard, but this time the liquid was acetone, which is corrosive it eats plastic so i nearly killed my fucking laptop i feel like "iv learned now, i wont be putting cuts/liquids in front of my keyboards anymore" but i also know im not gonna fucking remember this when im absentmindedly on the computer PLUS my cat is sick again, so i got an earful from my sister about him getting sick in the living room (as i was cleaning it up) and because its gonna take awhile til hes feeling better, i have to sleep on my chair because he gets my sheets messy and i cant not let him in my room, because he gets lonely easily and its not his fault hes sick again. plus plus, i dont even know why hes sick! he has digestive issues so no one gives him scraps and we dont switch his food, so i have no idea how hes gotten sick! its stressful having to constantly clean up after him and also have to worry about him all this happening at once is really just overwhelming. everything piling on just makes my depression worse. edit: oh and my sister is drinking again, which is so great! but atleast when shes drinking she doesnt yell at her kid, right? three times a day though i have to watch her kid while shes at the store buying more ugh. shit atleast shes not angry drunk. sad that this is even a plus to begin with i just want it to be me and my mom again things were so much less stressful *Sigh* Edit2: also i burnt a cake that i spent 2 hours working on, 40 minutes of which was just my vesting an orange which killed my arms also im all caught up on Gangsta and i know a new chapter isnt coming out til forever

Even I'm feeling less furious now, I have some things to vent I have still on my mind. It makes me angry if someone is playing dumb and pulls other people into the dirt with something what they have nothing to do - especially if you didn't attack that person. Sure, people can be clueless or innocent, but that was obvious for me it was just washing dirty clothes. If that person really wants to have a "calm, rational conversation" with me, sensitive information weren't what doesn't belongs to a public community. If you really want to "solve" the beef, you might had asked like "can we have a private talk? I know we have not the best relation right now, but I want to clear things up with you" or anything like that - NO. Arrrgghh girl you make me furious! If you really wanted a calm conversation, then that was a dumb move!! GNAAh