Vent

@knowledge is giving me strong Elfman vibes https://s3.narvii.com/image/mpbe2pevcayw64wxncs4ovrebgekrmmu_00.jpg

Ever since lockdown has started I have just felt super lonely and it’s really opened my eyes to the fact that after I finish uni life is going to be exactly like this but for longer I just wish I had people in my life that actually would reach out to me in times like this but to them I’m just an accessory and I’m not needed atm so I’m pushed to the side, I don’t have any friends that actually are there for me when I am always there for them and it makes me anxious because I don’t want to be lonely in the future

It is very normal to feel this way, and perfectly natrual. Often we see these things as someone not needing us, but it is more of an out of sight out of mind thing. For example, you may have a family member that you dont see, and don't necessarily reach out to everyday, but that doesn't mean you love them any less. As people we tend to focus on what is apparent and in front of us, so while you are probably on their minds, the day to day in their lives may be occupying their attention, even if those things are relatively trivial

i hate feeling insecure all the damn time. I hate how people judge me on my appearance, I'm average at best but I hate feeling like people think I'm just those conceded type of girls. I've seen how the anime kids at my school look at me like I'm some makeup insta bimbo whos incapable of having interest like them and how they give me the cold shoulder. Its like I'm not weird enough to hang out with them but I'm not normal enough to hang out with the other people. I feel insecure even being on this site T-T

A weeb is a weeb, doesnt matter what you look like. People often see me and think im just super popular with women and slept with a bunch of people when in actuality i think more about hand holding than trying to get some lol