Vent

Never, That seems to be the theme of my life.

so annoying that i spent my life being a straightedge fuck just so i can still be treated like i havent lived a moral fucking life

Meh... Jesus was accused of being an imoral drunkard for hanging around tax collectors and prostitutes. You're no Jesus, but don't let others get you down.

i more ment im the best out of my siblings (not getting into trouble wise, only child who hasnt been arrested) but because my siblings slip up im held to their standard instead of the standard iv built for myself my brother lost everything from gameboys to ps2s (or whatever the handheld games were) and tons of cellphones, and when i finally, finally (that was her fucking hand me down) get a cellphone i accidently lose it and nope, no more your untrustworthy like wtf thats him not me! he gets chance after chance and always fucks up and i only get one! and now im being blamed for something i didnt fucking do and now 'im not trustworthy' iv made it a point to not stress out my mother like my other siblings do and help my mother out and be there for her but no, none of that fucking matters fuck off (but i do agree about missing fun stuff like going to parties, but not like i was invited to any xD)

And my brother got his hash pipe found, as well as had to go to the hospital for alcohol poisoning(Not to mention getting caught for theft and vandalism.). My sister was skipping school and wrecking vehicles. Me? Literally stayed around the house only to be either told how pathetic I was, cussed out and a few lovely times of physical abuse. Well, I mean, I was a petty thief and technically kind of sort of involved in grand theft auto/almost breaking and entering....but I never got caught aaaaaand...Where was I? Twas a delightful childhood, but alas, life moves on. As an adult, we just move on, maybe get a therapist and or ignore speaking to family. Speaking of which, I know for a fact that's what I need, a therapist. But, this ain't about muh issus.

I tried my best... I really did and gave it my all I just don't understand why.. I'm just left here feeling sad, lonely, confused, heartbroken and lost Fml..

psh, good luck afford a therapist iv been to a few and could never stay because its pricey af plus some therapists are assholes and i cant ignore my family sadly, even though my mom can be annoyingly mean (like when she sided with my bf when he told me he cheated on me and then made him dinner) i still have to take care of her like she has me unless jeff moves back in then im gone (washington state here i come)