Vent

Im physically and mentally drained to the max... things arent going well with taking care of my grandma and i have no one to talk to about it... its awkward to bring up and i dont want to hear the i hope everything will work out from anyone this time. She fell out of her bed 3 days ago and crawled to the living room calling over and over again before i finally woke up and got over there. She has a life alert but would use it because she was scared to go to the hospital. She finally agreed to go today and nothing major was wrong besides fracturing some bone in her knee and having her arms and back of the head all swelled up from hitting her dresser on the way down and having to crawl to the living room to get to the phone... 10hrs at the hospital today and the only thing they could do was give her something for the pain which basically makes her a walking zombie so all of my time is being eaten up with having to stay over there staying up thru the night in case she gets up and has to use the bathroom cause she cant even walk to it on her own right now... im getting less sleep then usual and my brain is fried. i dont know how much longer i can keep up looking after her but i cant leaver her alone with no one to help.... i dont know what to do anymore and i dont want to put her into assisted living but its starting to seem like the only way... I dont know what is the right thing to do anymore. and i feel like im wasting my life away staying here to take care of her... but i cant just leave and i cant just pawn her off on other people it doesnt feel right... i feel stuck with no way out and like im wasting away along with her... Its hard to watch the only family you have that has always been there for you slowly degrade away, remembering less and less each day, being able to move less and less each day, and just spending what she has as her final days just wasting away in front of a tv because she cant even get out of the house anymore. Ive always told myself i have to be her rock and the one to tell her everything will be ok, but it feels like this rock is slowly being chipped away piece by piece. Im trying to not let it show tho, I dont want her to think she is a burden in my life.. i mean she was always there for me so its the least i can do ig, but man is it just taxing on the mind.

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@Dorito You know, I've been holding myself back from saying anything for a while now...But can you seriously chill with these types of posts? Anyone that's been here long enough and can put one and two together knows exactly who you're talking about and like yo, you do not need to put people's dirty laundry on blast like that. Even if it's a "Vent thread" I can only imagine how embarrassing it is for the person to see stuff like this just out in the open for everyone to see.