Vent

Its your fault i turned out like this. Now i have mommy issues and daddy issues. I cant even have one healthy relationship. While grateful for your effort your blood ruins me. I am biologically wired to be suboptimal.

Why dont you let me stay up as late as i desire drowning my sorrows in anime? I have so few sources of joy because you condemn them. It may not seem it but our relationship was abusive and still is tho to a lesser extent. I dont worship my computer i just have mo other source of joy. I cant even speak properly. Your religious condemnation of all i enjoyand your encouragement of not associating with people outside of church. Laugh. Cold. Wired. Wires. Bhf dbz. How is your static tv better than my mmo? Ero. Why?

i dont want to go to a halloween party... i dont fit in there... just drains my energy there.. My plans with my close friends got cancelled for this halloween too.. now they're kind of making me plan to do stuff.. i honestly.. just want to stay home.. so much stuff has been cruising my way so far..

I really hate how society has become more of a wash of he say she say or just a feminist society where you are wrong even if we did nothing wrong. there is so much going on in the world that people are rather worrying about little petty things then trying to make sure that things turn out okay for the Next Generation. They would rather turn kids gay as soon as they pop out of the wound then actually teach them about how to survive in the world if electronics suddenly turned off immediately. I feel like the world is trying to make it seem like we need technology we need our government just so that we can live happy and peaceful life without actually knowing what to do to survive. I'm not even going to lie to you about this where we're literally losing our senses and the few that have not lost morals or common sense are the ones that are put down because they know what is right.

Don't even get me started about the joker movie where people got mad especially social justice warriors got mad because the movie was telling what is actually going on in the world even if the joker movie was not even trying to do that this is happening in the world where people with mental illness don't just gold trying to rob a bank or trying to kill someone for no apparent reason there is a reason for everything there's a formula to it. people say that the devil was bad always but nobody ever remembers that he was once an angel there is a reason why the devil became the devil and then people blame others for what happens instead of themselves. The joker always says that all it takes is one bad day or that he always has negative thoughts.... Truly disappointing how I had mental illness and depression and even murder intent when I was living upstate but if it wasn't for my moving I would have definitely went down the same path as the joker..... I even went to therapy and the therapist told me everything that I wanted to hear and the fact that I was an intelligent individual and made it even worse because I could literally say whatever and make the doctor think that that's what I want to hear..... It didn't even matter about saying what was on my mind or how I was doing because all I could think about is negative topics and a negative mindset because all I was getting is what I was saying in my head from somebody else's mouth.... Social justice warriors don't care about nobody but their cause and it shows that because people would rather watch a movie and have it their way did actually try to see the meaning behind each movie or the joy that the movie brings.....the world is so broken that they would turn their heads away from what is true or what is real because this world is just becoming so corrupt and so delusional..... even me with super hearing I can tell by the smell from someone or even the looks that people give that this world is just giving up on morality and make it seem like morality is something that you choose to have and that is true..... Sadly if you decide to just be an imbecile then what is the freaking point of trying to go on living a life that you decide not to even participate in or decide to just ruin it because the fact that you feel that the world owes you something and I actually earn what the world is giving you. .. is ignoring what's going on around us so many people are just ignoring what is happening instead of trying to help or make a difference.....

Sad its closing uwu Now I have to go farther away for pet stuff It was literally 5 minutes from my house

Cero, That's a life pro tip. The great thing is, that'll alienate you from all of humanity, too. I know these things all to well, myself.