Vent

Only have one friend that ever texts me. Literally dedicate all my time to her because she is awesome and way cooler then me. Never wanted a relationship with her and she didn't want one either. Just the best of friends that talked all the time. Then found out she wasn't telling me alot of things we used to talk about. Then she slowly stopped texting me. Now if i get three basic texts from her a day its a good day. We used to talk about everything and almost none stop and now no matter what I do she won't talk to me. Really sucks she was all I had. And now got nothing. Like really why am i so bad at having friends? Sucks to loss someone that awesome.

Never have i ever had such a useless person in my life worse than my biological father. Even after i cut ties and disown him, to this day he still makes my life harder. Now He is going to cost me $300, after all the shit he has done. Let his ex wife run off with $ $15k of my college money my mom saved up. Not only me but each of my siblings as well. He has never been there for us, yes i understand my mom left him. But what else do you expect for a man who hits women? If i saw him right now i would punch him in his face i have no respect for that piece of shit. Wow bro how do you fuck up 5 peoples lives without actually being there smh.

I hated life. why do everything has to do with verbal skill and appearance? finding job is hard. i am feeling even more useless more then ever. all of this living needs makes me depressed even more about myself.

I wish she would understand that the only time that I show anger is when she did that to me, the level of my frustration is equivalent to how much I care about her, that the impact of what she did force me to be in that state. When will she learn, that people who don't react to what she did, always act nice to her, who is just fine with whatever she does and has no reaction or opinion whatsoever. Because they really don't care about her and always act nice to use her for something. When will she realize that before it's too late? If I only I could do something directly myself

i might be wrong but im here to find friend. i know this is a dating site. but i rlly want to find a friend, guy or girl whatever, as long as we can share thoughts, and just be friends. i understand about someppl who rlly likes to be friends with girls just for possibilities of love. but i dont like when ppl be friends with me just they expect me to love em. whats wrong with gender? whatever. sometimes this is why i dont like dating sites. they be like "are u a guy? are u a girl?" sigh.