Vent

People told me that first loves never work out but God damn I didn't expect it to be this bad. I never understood how people sometimes get all like, "She's my muse, my feme fatal, the love of my life". It felt like that sort of thing only exists only in movies. Holt shit. How can a girl have such an affect on me? I'm thinking about her 24/7. I go to sleep thinking about her. I wake up thinking about her. Fuck I even think about her when talking to other girls. I tried to move on by talking to other girls but they're just not her. I had so many chances at having other GFs but I rejected them just because they weren't her. Why do I love her SO much even though she doesn't love me? I know that relationship won't work out and it sucks. She lives on the other side of the world. How did I fall in love through some texts and voice messages? Am I that pathetic? I'm smart enough to know what's good for me and what's not. And she's not. So why do love her so much? Why her? Why is she so unique? I'm probably just acting childish for thinking I'll never find someone like her. Will I ever let go? A simple "thank you" from that girl feels better than any pick up line any girl has thrown at me. She's an average girl but why is she so perfect? Her happiness is all I want but I want her to be happy with me. They were right when they said first lives never work out. I'm an idiot for catching feelings.

^ lol you'll be back! As much as you say you hate the people on this site cuz we're all ignorant compared to you, the truth is you seek validation. xD