Your very first confession

Hum, I haven't shared this in a good while, but here it goes. My first confession was a bit late in life, only about 4 years ago, and was admittedly a bit cowardly as I'm just generally pretty awkward when it comes to the subject. I was working at a Home Depot for about two years and became rather interested in a fellow co worker. Being cowardly I talked to my head cashier about it (because he was super cool and generally just cool with everyone. I wanted to know if she was taken, blah blah). Well it went a little further than that and he basically confessed for me in a sense... kinda. Well from what he told me she seemed to have a pretty good reaction over it, she was supposedly blushing and everything. Fast forward a few days or so, when the opportunity presented itself I decided to ask her out on a date. I made a stupid origami rose because I was really into making origami at the time, and presented it along with the proposal for a date. Well she accepted and I was filled with joy. Fast forward to said date, it was pretty cool. We watched Man of Steel, went out and got some thai, really kicked it off I thought. Well after the date I let her know I had a good time via text, all that stuff. Fast forward about 3 days, she told me she couldn't really hang out in that way anymore, it's "complicated", not really getting to the point. Sometime after that I found out she had actually started dating some other guy that worked in the store around the time I asked her out, apparently. As you can imagine I went from being filled with joy to feeling like total crap. I eventually stopped working there because working with the both of them was just too painful honestly.

My uncle would go over to his girlfriends house a lot, one summer he got stuck baby sitting me, so he'd bring me along too (haha awesome uncle), and his girlfriend had two little brothers around my age and a cousin that lived with them too. After going over so much I started developing a friendship with the boys and I slowly started to have a crush on the oldest one, he was probably like 2 or 3 years older then me, can't really remember (this happened like a shit ton long time ago). When it was getting close to summer time ending, I was dreading it because I knew it meant that eventually I'd have to go back home for school, and I didn't live there or anywhere near that area ; o ; So on the last night at their house (we ended up staying longer because my uncle's girlfriend's parents invited us to stay for dinner) I wanted to jump on their trampoline one last time, this was m favorite thing to do, I've never had one or played on one, so we all jumped on it one last time. Two of the boys went back into the house, can't remember why but everyone was inside the house except me and the one I had a crush on. We were laying on the trampoline together, catching our breaths from all the jumping and looking at the stars together. Then out of nowhere my crush says, "Nelson said you have a crush on one of us" and I instantly blush (oh btw Nelson is my uncle). I was SO PISSED, my uncle always teased me that I had a crush on one of the boys, I never told him which one I liked but it was probably obvious since I've always been a hot mess around people I like, even at an early age... DIDN'T THINK MY UNCLE WOULD ACTUALLY TELL THEM THO -__-' Anyway, I was so nervous that I couldn't speak, so I just nodded yes, dumb idiot me didn't realize he couldn't see me doing that since it was dark and we were looking up xD So it took him awhile to realize I said yes xD After that he tried to get me to say which one of them it was, but I was really really shy, like about to die from the uncomfortable blushing. So then he goes, "Is it my little cousin?". I nod no. "Is it my brother?". (he didn't say cousin or brother he actually said their names but I have shitty memory and can't remember their names to save my life xD) I nod no. Then as if from a movie, there was a bit of silence. After awhile he asks, "Is it me?". Then I somehow muster enough courage to whisper, "Yes". I instantly sit up on the trampoline and look away from him, thinking that'll help me relax, he sits up too and scoots closer to me. "When I grow up, I'll save up enough money to take you out to the movie" he says to me, and gives me a quick peck on my lips, my first kiss. After that someone shouts from the house for us to get inside, can't really remember why, but ugh after that night we never spoke to each other again, well until I bumped into him like years later at an amusement park, but thats another story > # > But ah yea thats my awkward ass confession story and honestly the only cute romantic thing thats ever happened in my life xD

left a note for girl in locker at school. everyone knew it was me, bullied for weeks over it because i had no chance with her. actually was bullied years later in adulthood for it among other things.