Alone

The idea of college doesn't worry me too much. Mainly because I get to do things that I chose rather than maths lmao. And confidence is always hard to find when you're not used to finding it.

Yes I cant wait to do no maths. But its still in the sciences I chose ;-; College is scary as it means finding new friends and creating an image for yourself

Azurian: you don't have to be alone there many people on here to talk to. I am new I just started on this site I am searching for friends as well, I am also easy to talk to just please don't talk about drama. I do give advice out to my extent. But if it just nothing but drama i would had to cut you. other than that i am down being your friend you may add me comment me or even send me a message.

Azurian: you need to not live in a world of fear. if you don't take a chance of going to college how are you going to find friends? when you do go to college how will it affect you? the fear of making new friends is it going to stop you completely by making new friends if you dont talk to people or avoid them? fear takes things away from you, in order to make new friends you have to step up kick the fear in the ass and try your best to talking to people. once you find out how to kick the fear to the curb you will be fine.

I feel ya man... making friends is hard, especially in person. The thought of rejection is enough to make anyone stay inside rather than go out, and going to college too, that's another can of worms altogether. Socializing in real life is hard enough, but online it's so easy. The anonymity and personas we adopt here online is liberating because that masks we wear grant freedom from the physical limitations and perceived "flaws" that we have, but it doesn't have to be that way you know. I'm equally (if not more ) socially inept and tend to be shy, but I've come a long way. Here's some advice; when you eventually do go off to college, force yourself to live in a dorm room. The experience is great, and most universities have a system that pairs you up with a like-minded roommate, so chances are you'll get along really well. Also it's actually really hard not to be friends with someone you live with for a full year. Next, you should join a couple clubs; ones that you're super interested in, that way you'll always have something to talk about and can bond even more with the other members. I also recommend joining a sport. My first year I joined my university's archery and quidditch teams (yes, yes, I know) and the camaraderie that formed between all of us has lasted till this day. Also, as it turns out several members from archery were in my other clubs so I made even deeper friendships. Finally, hang in there man. You're still young and have tons of time to become the person you want to be. Growing up is hard enough without all the worrying. Just don't overthink things and dive in head first! Also if you're ever in need, just come here, everyone I've me here is great human being. I've also been through exactly the same thing, so ask for help anytime man ⊂(￣▽￣)⊃

Honestly, there are a lot of people like you, and you just have to find them. A lot of people don't have true friends, just like you. I'm exactly the same, I had friends but they never invited me anywhere. I never had sleepovers, went to parties or got invited anywhere. We could die at any point, and no one will remember if you made a fool of yourself or if you were a little weird. Am I making sense? I'm half asleep right now but when I read this post I related to it so much and I felt so emotional over it. I'd like to be your friend, and it's awesome that you live in the UK too. Let's be weird together. c:

I want to thank all of you for your replies. My situation has not improved by much over the past couple months, however I am slowly, but surely, coming out of my shell. Feel free to talk to me anytime, don't care about what :)

Reading your first post i was exactly like you, over the time i learn more and more about people and the friends I had. From my experience friends came and went naturally, eventually I picked up a hobby which I was interest in. I became dedicated to my hobby which was dancing, I wanted to go a competition but I was afraid that I was going to be awkward around all new people and was going to be alone, I built up enough courage to go to the competition and broke the ice. When I arrived to the competition I was scared and nervous but then I had the courage to speak to a group of people about dancing, those people where nice, friendly and welcoming. I was shocked, the more i talked the interest everyone became and the more people I met. I made new friends and in every competition or event I go to I always know I will have someone to talk to. What I am saying from this is you should just try it out and break the ice, you never know whats going to happen. Speak to someone or a group and see what happens! From this my life has been changed and feel more confident from this!

Are you someone who likes being alone? There's nothing wrong with that if you're happy the way you are but from what you said, it tells me that you really want a friend who you want to connect with on a deeper and more personal level. I can tell you that finding people like that can be very difficult since a lot of people these days are happy to just get to know each other on a superficial level. That doesn't apply to everyone though, from what I've learned you simply have to take the initiative and talk to people as much as possible and find someone who's more than happy to be your friend and spend time together as much as possible; it probably won't be the first person or even the second or third but that's why you keep trying. Not gonna bullshit ya, stuff like this is pure luck, it's basically the same thing as finding a girlfriend I find since there's no easy way to make people connect to you as it's something that happens on its own; the idea is to just stick with it even if you have to jump from person to person and eventually there'll be someone for you.