Random thoughts...

50 follows on my fanfic ;w; im so blessed ;w; https://media.giphy.com/media/j7Jd7ytO4a9os/giphy.gif

Was exhilarated a minute ago, went sad, but then writing how I felt down and browing through the forum lifted up my spirits a bit. My mood is swift like the wind, nanananana.... /sigh/ wish I had more time to interact with and reply to people on here.

protip when dealing with meat sacks if someone apologizes to you for "everything" and nothing specific theyr manipulating you

Love should be a truly special thing. I brlieve in monogamy as a k-selective(?) species. When I meet that special someone, how will I know? I have heard it be said, "Your (spouse) should be the one you can't live without, not the one you can live with." I believe that person will purge my weebiness. I will no longer want for konata izumi. Lain will finally recieve the peace she longed for,having retired from my psyche. Only she will remain. We all long for love to some extent. But for me, it validates my existence. I dread my future. The fear of solitude. However, Isimilarly fear rushing into a relationahip that willennd my viability as a bachelor and as a functioning member of society. I fear both commitment and noncommitment.