Random thoughts...

Well that makes sense to me. I guess my hopes of not being boring to others isn't very realistic. At least I am not bored of myself XD

@Tsunpaper Hah we cannot live up to everybody’s expectations. Also people should understand the fact that relying on others rather than themselves not to feel bored isn’t realistic. I also secretly wish I was not that boring :), but what I have done to improve myself just make me more and more boring to most people.

Internal consistency is important. If you can imagine it, there is a little pair of eyes and a voice in your head that are listening to and seeing everything that you think and do both when others are watching and when they are not. So if you are only kind to those for whom it provides some pleasure or benefit to be, only keep your promises or obligations when there is a harsh outcome for not doing so, steal from others, etc. then that little pair of listening eyes sees the "true" you. If you tell someone that you're kind, it's there to remind you of all the times you were rude to customer service people because they had to take your bs. OR when you were no longer respectful to that girl you wanted to date when you found out she was taken/not interested. IF you try to see yourself as an upstanding/trustworthy person it's there to remind you of all the time you skimped on obligations, broke promises(even..ESPECIALLY ones you've made to yourself), and been dishonest. List goes on. I'm no expert on this shit so take this next part with a grain of salt. But I feel like this is part of why so many people feel a lack of self confidence. They wouldn't bet on themselves because they "know" the them that is them when there is no pressure to be anything else. They know that "them" that changes when they don't "have" to be different. A good way to work on yourself is to be internally consistent. Avoid doing bad things because you aren't the type to do them. Not because you'll be punished. Keep your word because it's significant to you and not because in the moment it'll make your life worse enough to matter if you don't. Be kind to others regardless of whether it could get you a promotion, laid, or social points but just because you are the kind of person who is kind to others. Think "what kind of person am I/do I wan't to be?" What would that person do in any given situation you're in? And hey, if any of this sounds like a nope then maybe instead own that nope. You might be an asshole. Own that asshole. You might not be trustworthy. Accept that your word doesn't mean that much and come by people with that. Maybe keep being a thief to yourself...unless you like prison xD Just a thought.

the dude did it infront of us his dog runs away all the time and he had been chasing him, but the dogs a total sweet heart and IF YOU DONT WANT YOUR DOG TO RUN AWAY PUT HIM INSIDE also an animal that hits a human is 10% cooler