Random thoughts...

@soba I feel like you're your own worst enemy here. Stop telling yourself you're doomed, stuffs not set in stone, you need to get past the idea that your going to go nowhere from here on, your just getting started in life. Stop belittling yourself, most people don't start having a real life before 30 let alone 20.

@gabriel_true I wanted to say thanks for sharing that honestly, that helped me out a bit. My issue is it’s not just something happened, my whole life I’ve been miserable and I can’t seem to fix it. I’m not really sure how to be honest. Like for me it’s just one thing after another and it’s just becomes enough. Honestly I’m too much of a pussy to take my own life. I’ve tried and something stops me every time. Actually the impact id have on my family is what keeps me here somewhat, thanks for reminding me of that.