Random thoughts...

So I am around 500 pages into the book I'm reading and even though it gets progressively more complicated to the point where the main character is struggling to even understand what he wants in life. His goals conflict with his true desires. It goes from him wanting to be a good and exemplary priest to endless thoughts of a woman he can't reach due to celibacy to him asking the reason to his everyday struggles and the point of his everything he has to go through, every chapter or two. So despite all of this confusion, I started to connect with the narrative and the main character better. Instead of questioning his decisions, I found it better to try to relate him to myself. What I would do and how I would feel if I was in the situation he is.

I really want to finish a book I started 1 year ago but what if I'll be left with wanting more? I should buy the next book but I don't have enough money on the card and it might not even come to my door this time. I don't want to spend 2 hours to get to the post office. Decisions, decisions.

I had a dream i was back on deployment .-. But for some reason i had to do a walk of shame because clothes got wet or something.

@blacksugar12 Are you in your room all day? Do you keep having negative thoughts? Do you have a loss of appetite? Are you indifferent to the things around you?