Random thoughts...

I had to cut someone out of my life not too long ago, someone I cared deeply about and have known for 2 years, someone I had considered one of my best friends. I had feelings for her and didn't tell her how I truly felt, but when I did that she didn't say anything to me for about 3 days until I asked her if things were okay and she replied within 2 minutes (fucking ouch), saying that she appreciated and would consider my feelings and that we should spend more time together. After that she talked to me less and less, leaving me on read, seeing my snapchat stories, not saying things for days, you know how it goes. My feelings died out over time and I felt like "okay fine I get it, you don't want anything but at least be a friend and don't treat me like crap" I wouldn't do that to her and she knows it. So I had enough of it and decided to end everything with her cause it started to hurt me, bad. 2 years gone just like that, don't tell someone you want to spend more time with them and then not do it. I get that she has a life, she gets busy and works hard I respect that, I do. But at least say something, don't make promises you cant keep, I would've preferred rejection over the bullshit. Believe it or not, I don't hate nor have any ill will towards her, I honestly wish her the best in life. It was just too much for me for I did consider her to be one of my best friends. She had been there for me through the good and bad times, but I couldn't take it anymore just being treated like that, I didn't care about a relationship with her anymore, I cared more about our friendship, and losing a best friend that way was hard. https://66.media.tumblr.com/7bbe1fd35000c1754e57a97c9d9db47a/tumblr_pgyfpnun3E1ter2rqo4_500.gif

the way i see it Cero, the act of lifting your fingers and typing a message, even the brainpower required to think up a message, uses less energy in your body, than when you push to take a poop on the toilet. So they would put more effort into taking a crap then to message you, even a "please dont talk to me any more" in other words, your literally worth less than shit to them.

People seem to love to think that they can claim they go through some terrible things and you don't know what they are really like or if they are really ignoring you because they are going through some hard times but when you know someone for a long enough amount of time it's pretty easy to tell. No matter what yarn you want to spin the fact is that human beings can be predicted and they can be predicted accurately and all it takes is knowing a person long enough to figure them out. Sure sometimes you just need a shock to your system to realize that you've been ignoring someone because maybe you didn't really notice it but if you're called out on that more than once then there is no way that it isn't on purpose or that you can deny that you're doing it. There's a difference between shutting everybody out and not wanting to speak to somebody in particular. I don't get why some people have such a hard time just admitting to that fact when it's so obvious that they are enjoying the company of someone else more and they really just don't want to bother with you anymore. It honestly would save everybody a lot more time and aggravation and sometimes it has to do with them not wanting to hurt somebody's feelings but a lot of times it really doesn't because they just don't care yet they will still deny the not give a shit factor

meanwhile let's have a fun guessin game shall we :3 find my splitpersonality on MO! LOL~ he/she is already lurking xDDDDD you guess it and be on the fun I need some help with this :p ah yes do Pm me tho on the answer don't want anyone to find out right? RIGHT? this is going to be fukked up xD