Would you consider yourself a disciplined person?

Yes, very much so - to a point of fault. I'm a perfectionist, which is not as good as it might seem (if it seems that way in the first place). Pros: I always get everything I need done well and on time. Nothing has really "gone wrong" in the general sense of things. For example, if there's ever an obstacle I can find a way past it or through it. I was able to go to Japan by applying directly to a Japanese university in Japanese, working 30 hour weeks at McDonalds while taking 4 summer classes (which feels like 8 classes since they're so condensed), and constantly searching for ways to save every dime I could to get there and stay for the duration of my study when I had nearly half the amount the school recommended. Cons: Life has become a nightmare, and speaking of nightmares, I have them nearly every night which ruins my sleep. Even if I do everything "right", it's not enough. I constantly worry and feel like I'm wasting time when I'm supposed to be relaxing. I got my first gray hair at age 19 while neither of my parents saw theirs until their 30s. I had an emotional breakdown before going to Japan because of all the stress the stuff listed above gave me. I've gotten better with it, but it's still prevalent. For the person/people who want any advice on being strict with yourself, my only real advice would be to set goals and follow through with them. For me, my mindset has been: if I don't complete this goal, I'll die. But don't go that far if you can help it.

I would say so. When I was in middle school I told myself I wanted to lose weight, I came up with a plan and stuck with it until I achieved my goal. Overachieved actually... had to let some weight come back ^^;. Back in highschool I decided I wanted to completely cut soda out of my diet, haven't drank any since. In college I was always able to focus and study for all my tests, putting all gaming and other activities aside. This resulted in me acing a lot of computer, science, math, and japanese classes I cared about. When I want to get good at a video game, I'm able to practice for hours on end without any real issue. When I need to save money I'm very good at not wasting it on pointless things. Very good at budgeting and sticking to those budgets. I told myself I want to run a half marathon next year... I've been training this year and I've completed around 9 miles around an 8 minute per mile pace. This one's a work in progress. C:

I guess it would be kind of bad if I said I was undisciplined. "Hi, I'm Dr.Mario. I'll be taking care of you today. Sorry I'm 30 minutes late. I slept too long." "You have pain in your chest? Sorry, I don't know what to do because I didn't study enough." I am disciplined when it comes to other people. Although, when it comes to myself, I can be undisciplined.

Only when I'm working by myself, I hate working with other people. I'm a perfectionist so I like things done nice and efficient with great quality. But most jobs require working with people which I don't like because most are lazy and ignorant as fuck. I also don't like other people's opinions anyway so I just can't work with other people whatsoever. I'm thinking about getting a over night job or something where I can work and be fully alone.

Yeah I do.... I try to fit in but I don't understand people to well. I don't know what's going on. It seems as though people or god (if there is one) is just fucking around with me. You know people say I'm weird and stuff yet they don't see what they themselves are doing. Like when I was working I would help all my co-workers. I'd do my work plus extra and stay overtime even when I was tired as hell. Fucking disgusting humans just kept piling more work for me to do. Like "oh he's single and he has no life and he likes work so throw it on him". You know how badly I wanted to kill most of them!? How I thought since all humans needed to survive that we would all pitch in to help each other as like a family or very close team. How the damn manager fucking preached "take pride in your work" yet he didn't practice what he preached. The damn co-workers were no different. I'd see them on their phones yet if I sat down to take a break just once they'd bitch at me because I was nice and didn't fight back. But you know, there is no such thing as "love" or "true care" for that matter. They'd rather be fucking or smoking. People call me weird and that my logic is backwards lol, I highly doubt it. As what Naomi has said in another post that confidence helps with getting people to think your attractive. I know how it works and that's how I got my 2 ex's. Its as if they weren't even alive, I got them to laugh and they asked me out the next day. It's not just that laughing though, that certain "confidence" crap has to be expressed at the same time to supposedly make them fall in love with you. You have to slightly change it with different females though. Hearing their voice gives you a sense of what they like and what they dislike. When you know that that's how you know what works and what doesn't. Do you see how I don't just go off of emotions like "normal" humans? I don't understand what it's for.... Naomi also stated that I'm weird or insane for wanting a real Yandere girlfriend. I want the emotions that I feel from a Yandere girl but I don't want her to go and actually kill others. Basically I want a girl who is so intelligent that she knows how her emotions work so she can tell me how to manipulate them and I want her to manipulate mine. Humans don't understand how they themselves react to different stimuli in the environment. There is no such thing as people "accepting you for who you actually are". There is only "people accepting you for what you portray that they specifically want or like". Sorry for the long reply, I had to vent.....