Confess how you feel

This will be my third post here, so I might as well say something. These would be the feelings I might have in the future. Or not. I don't know. These are mainly words that I would want to say to that special person since expressing and showing my feelings is something I can't do well. So here I go. Ahem. When I first met you, I thought you was a different kind of person than you are now. The thought continued when we started talking. I said hi, you said hello, I asked how you were doing, and so on with the generic FAQ when meeting someone. But as I learned more about you, I began to see more. I saw things that wasn't there at first, like I wasn't experienced enough in knowing about you to see it at the beginning. I may have been a shallow person and talked to you because of looks, but you as a person made me stay. Your personality showed me just how much you truly looked in my eyes. The thought I first had of you is gone as I now think of you as an ever growing beauty. Yes, there may be a few things here and there you do that annoys me from time to time, but I don't care about that. For I accept you as a whole, the good and the bad. I accept all of you because that's what makes, you, you. I want you to be my sun as your personality pulls me in and never lets up. I want you to be my moon as I see you shine beautifully from your warm glow in the darkest of times. I may not be able to promise you much, but I'll do beyond my all to do anything I can just for you. I hold out my hand in hopes that you'll take it. And if you take mine, I'll take yours to hold you close and NEVER let go. I don't need to see the beauty of the world when all I have to do is just look into your eyes. Now to find someone to tell this to. I'm patient, so it can take as long as it needs to.

Fourth post. But this one actually has relations to feelings for someone. Shocking. Truly shocking. Let me get this off my chest so that I can go do something else. How I feel is weird and rather annoying. Weird because, even though it's somewhat rare for me to have feelings for someone, it's really rare that I can't cut those feelings. Annoying because there's a ton of reasons that I should cut these feelings and move on but I really don't want to. Anytime I like someone to a certain point or even before that happens and I prepare just in case, I'm always ready to cut any special feelings I would have. But these are feelings I just don't want to cut. Part of me feels that if I do cut them, then I'll lose out on a chance that would come up after I did it. Another part of me feels that if I keep them around, then I will just be waiting for nothing. And then there's a third part to just sit them aside as I wait while just going for another, but that makes me feel a little bad. Feelings are weird. This person is truly fun to talk to, fun to mess with, and just goes along with what I do as I do the same for her. It feels weird that I feel like I know her quite well, even though I mainly only know one side to her. But mainly from that one side we seem similar at some points. I already know full well that I can't date her. Technically, I can't date anyone here. Because I think my current position won't really let me be much of anything in a long distance relationship. Though maybe I'm feeling like this out of selfishness. I tend to be motivated and determined when I'm in a relationship. And I haven't been motivated much since my break up last year after finally getting motivation. So far knowing what I have to do to put myself into a better position has already given me slight motivation, but I think I can get more. For this person makes me feel that I could truly bring the two of us together if I was given the chance. I just... want to be there for her. This feeling is something very rare for me. And I don't want to cut it out just yet. It feels warm, sweet, gentle, and it makes me feel happy, just like she does when we talk. I'm perfectly fine with being friends only if it really just ends up like that, but for the moment I think I'll hold on to these feelings for a while longer. I know I should probably just find someone else that's closer to me, but I don't really want to. This is rare for me after all, only three women have made me feel like this throughout my whole life and this person is the third. And even if holding on is just pointless for an almost impossible relationship, I'll still try anyway. I've watched enough anime to the point that I think if I just try, I could defy what life throws at me and succeed. Yeah, I feel like an anime character that's always pushing on towards their goal, that person standing in the distance before them. And I'll gladly do that role. I'll push past any limits that will get in my way. Accomplish every goal set before me. Improving myself as I do so. I will do everything I possibly can for her and beyond. And I'll be waiting for the possible chance to do so. I'll be waiting for when she calls me by my real name. And that is when I'll begin my quest to accomplishing my goal of bringing us together. I'll break the glass that blocks the path between us. So yeah. That's it. Just wanted to get that off my chest. And holy crap this is long!

Honestly i feel empty like nothing can fill the void, i have been hurt in just about every possible way in a relationship, lifes a darn struggle as it is, haven't had the best luck with friends either, even so life has blessed me with a few really good ones so im fortunate, I wish to make more friends and keep moving forwards, not feel frozen in time, even through the adversity and chaos of life i just want to feel again, feel something, a spark to ignite the fire that was drowned in my sorrows long ago. @ Hoodedfang: If for some random reason you read this i just wanted to say that what you feel is ubber sweet cx shes a lucky gal you seem like an all around amazing person, if you truly feel such feeling i suggest that you hold on to them and try your best don't let life's chances pass you by, wishing you the best of luck! Ganbare! Fighto! (^u^)9

Ether, She would be lucky if he wasn't talking future tense.

@etherealock Thanks. I'll try to, but I still have to be prepared just in case. And I will help fill your friend void. @yaasshat English was my worst subject in school, so uhh I don't really know what mean by future tense. But if I'm able to get my work computer fixed after having it checked today, then I'll be able to start now. XD

confess how I feel eh? well I'll be honest I have almost given up honestly. I've dated rarely after my ex cheated on me, but I dunno it's something I've always been kinda scared of. I've been known as the "too nice"' guy too many times and although it's very flattering it hurts a lot inside. It's just how I am and how I've been raised :/ I've never been too picky on relationships even if it's a long distant relationship.. "distance makes the heart grow fonder" as they say right? I dunno I'm at a point in life where I can actually look for a relationship now, but at my age most of the women I've known are either into ass holes or just taller men, even if they're friggin bums.... I'm only 5'4 U_U... However still I dunno what to do, just keep trying I guess. I've liked a girl last year for a while, and I've asked her out twice only to be rejected with her going out with a damn lowlife who doesn't care for her needs and only himself.

@Juveh In The Perks of Being a Wallflower there's this quote: “We accept the love we think we deserve.” Don't worry, I'm not relating this to you. I'm relating this to the girl you're talking about in your post. She may believe subconsciously that she doesn't deserve better than those douchebags and maybe even that she doesn't deserve a nice guy like you. That's why they always keep going on about "why can't I find a nice guy like you." They somehow don't make you a viable option due to the fact that they probably don't think they deserve to be treated like that. Another reason might be that she picks up on the fact that you like her yet you've only been nice to her and not come on to her for a long time, which might subconsiously make her feel like you're just being nice with her to get her to go out with you. This might cause her to feel like you're not being genuine with her. I don't know the situation well, so it could be either two of them, but those seem to be much common reasons

I confess that my strong feelings for paragraphs is raging due to the lack of them everywhere. Wall-o-text bugs me. A lot. I also confess that I'm going to be losing somebody precious permanently really soon.