Truth or Dare

I meant I won't take dare that was such a derp it's cause I was thinking of the word truth while trying to spell dare. I'll fix it now.

@Anime kid. Ahh ok. Truth me plz.^^

@yami wait what?

@queen Pay how i feel about the 3 people to post last above me *from my last post when you gave me that truth* Otaku: Seems alright but I haven't talked much with them but they used to be more active. Kyosuke: I don't really have an opinion with them because i don't recall seeing them before really. Mango Mochi: I'll just repost a previous post of mine in regards to Mango. For me it's not a "senpai" but my "kouhai" that I have the feels for. My Kouhai is someone who's given me feelings I've never felt for someone before. She's gotten me to say and try things that I NEVER thought I would say or do before. Most of them are small things but still they are things that I never thought I would do but I end up doing just for/because of her. Each day I look forward to texting her, to hearing her voice and talking with her. When I go to sleep I don't want to because if I'm talking with her than that means the conversation is over, even if I’m drifting off to sleep I wish I could stay awake to talk with her more. Each morning the very first thing I think of is to check my phone to see if I have any message from her even if I know that she would be sleeping later than I would be and that there would be no reason to expect a message from her. Whenever I hear the “text message” sound from my phone I have a knee jerk reaction to check to see if it’s from her. I enjoy talking with her so much that I’ve lost a good bit of sleep over it. I won’t say “how” much but I’ll say that it’s a bit haha. At the same time though I don’t regret a single moment of it. Even that time that in a 48 hour time period I only slept 4 hours and had to go to work, I didn’t regret the time spent with her for a moment. I can’t believe just how much fun I always have talking with her. If before I met her, someone told me that I would meet someone and talk with them for hours on end, even to the extent of 8+ hours straight and still continue doing so almost every night, I wouldn’t have believed a word of it. How could I continue talking without losing interest night after night for such insane length of time? Yet here I am. Baffled and amazed, in fact I kind of want to try and hurry through this to talk with her right now lmao. There’s so much for me to like about her. Sometimes it seems that she has a hard time taking complements to heart but I absolutely love her voice. I’ve listened to her sing a number of different songs and I love hearing her sing all the time. Even when she isn’t singing and she’s just speaking I love the sound of her voice. All the different intonations are so cute as well as other things that I won’t go into here lol. I also never would have thought that I would find myself just staring into someone’s eyes just because I wanted to look into their eyes. I don’t know what it is but sometimes when we’re video skyping I just find myself looking into her eyes for no reason other than I just enjoy doing so. I love how we share so many things in common. Granted, we are on an anime site but still, anime, video games, both romantics, we even like a TON of the same music even to some kind of unusual choices for bands that end up all over the musical spectrum. She is also so very kind and patient. She puts up with so much of my stupid crap lol. I mean she really puts up with WAY more than she should allow me to get away with XD She always seems to be/have been so patient with me and has withheld any judgment from a number of things I’ve said or maybe have done(though a couple times I’ve wondered if it’s not that she’s literally withheld judgement and just didn’t say anything lmao). I love her kindness and her gentle side though I do feel a little worried that sometimes she’s a little to kind for her own good and that she sometimes ends up hurting herself unnecessarily because of it but that just part of what makes this awesome person who she is. I’m also just flat out amazed that she likes someone like me haha. I can’t really fathom it but it makes me so happy. She always lights up my days and is usually the very best part of my day. She’s a really amazing girl who’s had to live through so much crap that I can’t even begin to imagine what it must have been like for her and yet even with all that adversity (which fails to even come close to accurately describing what she’s been through) she’s still managed to come out on the other side as such an amazing person. I’ve even wondered if the reason I just so happened to check out the forums here again, and to become active again, wasn’t just so that I could have the chance to meet her. I’ve laughed because of her, I’ve had a great time because of her, I’ve even (and I’m quite embarrassed to say this) cried because of her which is something that I haven’t done in literal years. She just seems to bring out so much in me that I wouldn’t have expected and she makes me want to be the better person for “her” that I’ve almost been too lazy to be or lacking too much ambition to care to even really try to be. We haven’t met yet but I anxiously await the day that we do. My thoughts focus on her day in and day out(probably more than is productive lmao). It almost seems as if I’m constantly thinking of new ways to try and surprise her and put a smile on her face…..or embarrass the crap out of her lol. There are so many things that I want to show her and things that I want to do or surprise her with to try and make our first meeting memorable. I joined here thinking that I might find someone but probably not but I would probably make some friends anyway so I gave it a shot. I certainly made a number of friends but I never would have expected what I would have found here.