Ever hated a human?

Hated multiple people on several occasions. So much I thought about killing them in multiple ways. Nevertheless Ive changed such ways and try not to hate anyone. Though I do dislike people if they dont fit my criteria.

I don't hate people very much but I have a little sister that makes my life a living hell. Of all the people I know she is the worst I ever met in my life but I still don't hate her since I'm not the type of person to hate someone.

http://38.media.tumblr.com/3d9790f04520303cb7447781a3f11572/tumblr_njd92efk7M1tmy90yo1_500.gif But seriously I love everyone it takes a lot to get on my bad side but even then I dont hate them.

There's a lot of people I hate in this world but very few on a personal level, I may seem like the happiest motherfucker alive when people talk to me - mostly because I tend to put my issues aside in the attempt at a good, casual, friendly conversation. People don't like seeing the "dark side" of who I am and I don't want to let my personal strife get in the way of everything I do. But I guess that since you posted this in the forums, I guess it just gives me more than enough reason to finally vent some pent up rage. It's a story to do with my ex, who I still talk to and am really great friends with (Not naming anyone) - even though we broke up two years ago, we're still very close. So she fell in love with another guy, you can understand I was upset by this but I'm not petty and I encouraged her to go out with him. Everything seemed all well and good and then things started to turn strange. She told me about her bf and it certainly seemed like trouble in paradise - I gave her advice on how to sort out some of the issues (Yeah I seem to always be the advice guy, helping others with relationships but can never have one of my own - story of my life right there) and things seemed better for a little while - until one day, she called me on Skype and she was in tears. Obviously I knew something was up and I tried to calm her down and help her out, only to tell me she was raped by said bf. I was enraged. Furious. Angry. Upset. And more importantly it felt like my fault because I insisted she would be better off with him and I was so very wrong. She broke off all ties and contact with him as much as possible, she was utterly traumatized (As to be expected from a rape situation) and I was there to help her through that tough time and man, it was tough. But once she's calmed down and what-not she felt like herself again, it took a while but she finally managed to get herself back up on her feet with my help and things went back to normal. We would go back to playing games together, watching anime and films together and stuff was just fine. She did have her occasional depressive moment where she felt all down and alone and as usual I was there and I was more than happy to help. Of course with the incident and what-not and since she highly values relationships, she always told me that she felt lonely and, well - there are times when she "wanted" me (Yes in that way) and since we were very close and talking about getting back together, I obliged with her request because I knew it would make her happy even if it was just a short term solution. Come the next year, she found a new man - he seemed like a great guy at first, they seemed perfect together and they were to begin with despite the usual lover's spat and all that shite which is to be expected. They both seemed happy and things were going well. Until of course this dude does the same thing as the last guy. Similar situation to how she told me the last time, called me on Skype, drowning in tears and this time she was in a very bad state emotionally when a seemingly great guy just goes and does that for no good reason. This was very recent (Not even three weeks ago) and while she is recovering a lot faster than last time, she's still very upset about the situation. But just like last time, I gonna be there to help her through it once again. Even though I was extremely furious, I'm still converting all of that energy into helping her feel better. But even with all of that, I feel angry at myself for encouraging her to go out with both of those fucknuggets, especially since we're so close. I just felt angry at everything and it's REALLY not healthy for me (the perpetual dark circles around my eyes and insomnia proves that point) which is why I'm trying to keep that rage in and to convert it to something positive. So it really explains why I seem like a right bubbly shite bag when I'm speaking to people here on MaiOtaku or just anywhere in general - it's because I'm trying my best to hold that anger back. I'm not touchy when it comes to the internet because it's the internet, but IRL or when talking to friends in general and someone says something to me that pushes me over the edge then that's when I kinda explode. It doesn't help when pretty much everything else going on in my life is a load of toss neither. So yeah that's kind of my story and where most of my hatred is directed at but it's also just a little bit on how it's affected me as a human being as well. I'm not the happy little dork I used to be three years ago and feeling bitter, crap and lonely all the time always gets to me at some point or another - one of the reasons why I signed up to MaiOtaku, to meet like-minded people who I can talk to without feeling any kind of pressure and I can make new friends and possibly something more as well (That's if me and my ex don't get back together of course which is a very likely case). TL;DR - Shit happened, I'm fucked up. I guess that sums it up.