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Very recently... like... Wednesday I drove up to LA to wish an old friend goodbye because she was going to Tokyo for school so she could hopefully gain fluency and start working in Japan in the jewelry and fashion industry. Anyhow, she's married but separated. It's complicated, her ex is from Japan and though he's actually got a secure job and could easily secure himself a VISA because of such, having a spouse helps his case for being here. Anyway, she came out to me and revealed something to me that I found very interesting, but didn't want to seem overly interested about. She had met someone who was basically a manly woman, but not BUTCH per se, not NECESSARILY transexual, she just prefers a male aesthetic. She showed me who she'd been seeing and my reaction was, "I'd like all of this but with the male parts and not the female parts like the boobs however small they are and also the other parts. Is this a thing in Japan???" Her response was "Yes, this is actually a thing!" So, it may take some looking within the LGBT community, but there is a someone for everyone. You may not have found the someone for you, but one day you might. She might be a tattooed, busty bobshell that dresses amazing, speaks fluent Japanese, and wears the most awesome and badass jewelry. You never know. :P I definitely encourage you to connect with the community online. Unlike any other community, not only can you make friends internationally as my friend has, but you also can find a very good support group because everyone knows what it's like in one way or another.