Scared to open up to love becuase of Emotional Issues

I'll stay a virgin until I'm married, especially having kids. I just don't want to be with someone and that's it. I won't lie, I do have a lot of problems. But you know everyone does, some more than others. But you still supposed to love them regardless.

Don't get my wrong I'm not waiting until marriage, I just haven't gotten the feeling to say ok lets go. Like Rozecosplay said I need emotional connection and more but without all that I just can't.

Yes, and though I'm not the best at wording things without sounding like a horrible person; I suppose I can throw in my two cents. It takes me a long time to trust people and an even longer time for me to develop feelings for another person just because of drama alone. I have a lot of demons to put up with everyday, and I have a lot of emotional, psychological and mental problems to work through before I seek out a serious relationship. It's made me a bitter, cynical and paranoid person who isn't much for proper words. When I see threads like this, I can't help but put in my two cents because I think hearing from kindred souls helps ease the pressure a little bit. I can't honestly tell you if you ever will or won't find someone for you. Hell, it may never happen. But taking the very real first step and initiative towards what you want is one of the more tantamount steps to achieving what you want. It's a matter of "do or do not, there is no maybe". I'm not sure if my rambling actually provided insight, but that's my take on the matter.

^ I get really paranoid too on relationships. I can relate somewhat. I don't have confidence because usually guys I would have interest in wouldn't like me anyways. I've been through a lot of stuff with guys that it really hurt me a lot. I have enough going on in my life too so that doesn't help me with the brokenness..

I think it's more of keeping your confidence and outlook than just having it because it will chip away with every doubt and rejection. How I see it, you have to be hurt to learn what you want. And you have to endure even more anguish (letdowns or rejections from ones you are attracted to) if you want to get it. It isn't easy to do and you can be doing it forever. I'm just guessing once you do finally get it then it's all downhill from there. Don't set it in stone though, I'm still looking too.