surichan

As uncharacteristic of me as always here, but even I can't hide from my nature forever, it seems... relationship troubles were beyond me, I thought. And worse, I hope she doesn't just spawn in and see this shit. But I've been suspicious of her potentially cheating for months now. I shouldn't even have these doubts to begin with, I mean she's allowed to have friends. I just don't like how she acts all cutesy with a specific one. Maybe this is a healthy level of suspicion, maybe not. Either way, I just have no idea how to confront her about it, or talk it out. She's never been the most confident in herself, is a bit selfless, and struggles to say "no". That said, I'm honestly scared as hell of all the things that could go wrong and can't stop thinking about it. I'm afraid of possibly hurting her, I'm afraid of losing her, or making her think of me differently, and I'm afraid of pulling the plug, were it necessary. I just don't have anyone else that I can truly be myself around, and I'm scared to lose that, and I'm scared that if I do, some other dude in the future will just hurt her, and make her believe for the rest of her life that love doesn't exist, or is a bad thing.