ZackV4

I mean if you do decide to end it which I don't think you should cause you're honestly a really good dude but if you do then just know I care and I'm sure there are others who do to so if you don't do it then I'm always here if you need to talk.

I don't care who reads this, honestly. I can't find love for anyone or anything anymore. Darkness is taking over and it seem almost like anyone who I truly loved or could help me with stand it is gone forever. If anyone remembers Miyoung, she could. I know she could change this. She was the last person I truly loved. After she left, my heart never found a place with anyone else. My brain says to believe that someone can help, just haven't found that person yet. My heart is arguing, saying I won't last that long. I think my feeling is right... Maybe it's time I let love go on. I get so anxious not knowing what side of me to trust. But myself as one says to forcefully end this feud by making my body suffer. That's how I want to leave. I want to be tortured. I want to regret everything I've done. Even saying so, I still push on for some reason, I don't know why. I guess thanks are in order if you managed to read this with an open mind....