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When the other shows mutual interest and takes the effort of contacting you when they miss you. or initiate a hug of their own.

Mhh, honestly it's a bucket list and its a chain reaction. My early childhood was chaotic, in my teens i suffered emotional neglect. That made me never feel like i fitted in so i just did things on my own. I tried reaching out and going on dates but often feel my interests just don't allign with theirs. I cooked, toke them out for picknicks, went to museums, lost weight, etc. But noticed i always was the one that had to initiate and pull the cart. Eventually i got the feeling i just wasn't good enough for some. and at this point i feel like i'm just lagging behind on the romance department and would have to find someone understanding and patient to actually form a connection.